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Monday, December 24, 2012
Merry "whatever doesn't offend you": Peace, love, and a little family fighting
I always knew, but never really thought, I'd be the kind of person who moved out of my hometown. I dreamed it, but part of me always thought I'd stay put. Like most things in my life, I was ambivalent about it. Over six years ago, my husband came home with the news that we had the opportunity to move to Phoenix, AZ. Just a slight change from our gorgeous, yet gloomy Seattle. We deliberated, but decided to go for it.
Moving was everything I'd ever dreamed of...and dreaded. I love the weather here, but it has been a difficult change. I only thought it would take a couple of years to settle in, make friends, and resume our wonderful (if not complicated) life. It took a lot longer. Like 4 years longer.
I thought we'd NEVER make friends! It took forever, but now, here, on Christmas Eve, I have so much to be thankful for. I love how I am friends with people in Seattle now that I wasn't that close to when I lived there (thank you Facebook!). I love how I've kept in touch with Seattle friends, that even though they're not every day staples like they used to be, we can pick it up in a heartbeat.
And I used to have a hard time mourning the friendships that seemed to disappear when we moved, but now I have enough distance to just be grateful that these lovely people were there in our lives when we needed them. And a few old friends that had gone AWOL are suddenly reappearing!
I can't begin to express my appreciation for the people we've met here, who hung in there with me. They listened to story after story about how AMAZING Seattle is. And occasionally they still have to listen to it. It's part of who I am. But I have to admit...I'm part Phoenician now, too.
Maybe it's easier when I've got the love of my life by my side. I hope it is, because even though I doubt it will happen, I hope we end up overseas somewhere cool together. All my love to all of you...past, present, future...who have extended your hand, your ear, your shoulder, your laughter, your tears, to reach out and touch my life in such incredible ways. Bless you, my friends. Bless you.
Monday, September 10, 2012
Letting Go of the Boat: The Trouble with Making Decisions
“Let go of the boat!”
I barely heard the words as the
thrashing water of the rapids bounced me around while wave after wave crashed over
my head. The fear and freezing temperature took my breath away as I clung to
the rope that surrounded our upside down raft. Just a few moments earlier, our guide, Neils, had asked us if we wanted to go through the next (and biggest) set of rapids on the river. He explained that the boat could flip, but that he'd navigated this area many times and flipping was something he knew how to handle. As my friend, Ronda, and I considered it, he asked: "Do you want to go big or go home?" That settled it. We were going big.
We were paddling through the roughest part of the rapids, doing just fine, when suddenly the boat was upside down and we were under it in the frigid, snow-melt water. After getting out from under the boat, I found myself repeatedly pummeled with waves that filled my mouth with water every time I tried to take a breath. As I clutched the rope that connected me to the raft, I found myself staring up into Neils' calm, but serious face from his perch on top of the flipped boat. Although his voice was steady and firm, I couldn’t fully process what he
was saying to me.
“Let go of the boat!”
Slowly,
his words sank in. The idea of voluntarily casting myself adrift into the
rapids was terrifying—This is how people drown, I thought to myself. The snug fit of my life jacket was less than
comforting. My friend, Ronda, was behind me in the water—one hand holding onto
the back of my life vest, the other, like mine, clinging to the rope connected
to our boat. Neils’ order defied logic; The boat felt like the only thing that
stood between me and drowning. But it was the right thing to do. Our guide,
despite his youth, was very experienced; he grew up on the river and led
countless friends and family members on this trip. I had to trust that he knew what he was doing. In order for him to flip the boat back over,
Ronda and I would have to let go.
My
river run with Ronda a couple of summers ago is a great metaphor for the way I
make most decisions in my life. I cling to what I know, what seems to be true
and solid, in fear of the unknown. As I research on the Internet and talk to
friends ad nauseam about whatever the decision is at hand, the waves of
information eventually threaten to drown me. I feel as if I can’t breathe. My
thoughts swirl as surely as the whirpools of the river as the water flows over
rocks and fallen trees.
The
funny thing is, the fear and paralysis occur regardless of the size of the
decision. From picking out a movie to deciding on schools for my kids, I have a
very difficult time making choices. Choosing one thing is not choosing something else. What if I make the wrong choice? What
if I miss out on something that would have been better?
Right
now, I’m in the midst of one of those agonizing decisions. After working on my
own for the last 17 years as a consultant in corporate training and
communications, I got burnt out and quit. That was a year and a half ago. At
first, it was nice being at home and I needed some time to regroup and recover,
but now—it’s time. I need to decide
what comes next.
I’m
not qualified for any other careers right now, so that led me to the idea of
going back to school. The problem is that my interests and background don’t
lend themselves to a practical degree like Nursing or Accounting. You know—the
kind of degree that qualifies me to get a job.
My undergrad degree is in Humanities, so the program that appeals to me is a
Masters in Liberal Studies, which, in my opinion, qualifies me for life, but
not so directly for a job.
Do
I enjoy the next two years and get the degree that best suits me? Or do I suck
it up and get a degree in something more practical? Or do I just try to find a
job and skip school all together? The decision feels overwhelming and it will
take a while before I can answer those questions—after all, at least some research is in order for major life
decisions, right?
One
thing that gives me comfort is that although it’s easy for me to get stuck in
the decision-making process, I’ve never regretted a single decision I’ve made.
Apple founder, the late Steve Jobs, said in his Stanford commencement speech in
2005, “…you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them
looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in
your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma,
whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the
difference in my life.”
Looking
back, the dots do connect. Every decision got me to where I am today—a place I
am happy to be. I love my husband, I like who my kids are, I had an amazing
career, and I have to trust whatever comes next will only add to a life
well-lived. The fact is: there are no wrong decisions. Regardless of which
degree I choose or if I decide to get a job, my experience will have its positives
and negatives, but ultimately it will have been an experience worth having.
Back
in that river two summers ago, I did finally let go of the boat. While the
waves kept crashing over me and I struggled to catch my breath, I held on to my
paddle and felt Ronda holding on to me. There we were, two middle-aged women,
adrift in some pretty gnarly rapids. After what seemed like an eternity, but
was mere seconds, I felt Neils’ strong hand grab the shoulder of my life vest as
he hauled me into the boat. I lay there, spent and heaving, as he pulled Ronda
to safety as well.
Even
when it seems illogical, even when I want to cling to the safety of the known,
it’s true that the better decision is to let go of the boat—to release myself
into the flow of the river of life (preferably with a friend holding on to my
back). Whether the current is slow and smooth, or crashing whitewater, I can
trust that God, my river guide, will not let me drown.
Let go of the boat, Dana. I’ve got this.
Letting
go, He will pull me to safety, where, relieved, I can enjoy the rest of the trip.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Expect Nothing, Be Open for Anything
“The best things in life are unexpected - because there were no expectations.” - Eli Khamarov
Every frustration, disappointment, or fear in my life comes from expectations. Sometimes it's that people aren't who I expect them to be, or they don't do what I expect them to do. Situations don't turn out the way I expected. It seems that culturally, we talk of "hope" and "expectations" as if they are good things, but I am beginning to wonder. It seems to me that it is better to live in the moment and free myself of expectations, since hoping and expecting are all about a future that I cannot see.
A standard part of human experience is that we fear not living up to others' expectations. We talk of "expecting more" of our kids or our employees. But really, when we have specific expectations of others, aren't we limiting who they can be? What they can accomplish? When we have expectations of ourselves or others, they are based on our tiny, little, pea-sized view of the world. How can we create expectations for the best possible things in our life when we can't even see all of the possibilities?
Backward-facing emotions like regret, shame, and guilt usually come from past expectations. I didn't expect to lose that friendship. I expected more of myself. My parents expected more of me. These rear view thoughts serve as a cage to keep us from the present and all of the possibility of "what could be."
Moving forward, my choice is to expect nothing, but to notice everything. To pause, and say "Hmmm...based on my limited world-view, my tiny sense of truth, this doesn't look so good. It's not what I expected. But who knows what a God of the Universe could DO with this! Let's see what happens!"
Monday, March 26, 2012
Damn, It's Hot
The day we moved into our house in Scottsdale, Arizona it
was 115 degrees. It was the first house I’d ever lived in that had air
conditioning, but of course we couldn’t turn it on that moving day, with the
doors open to facilitate the process. As a girl who had spent her entire
thirty-five years in the cool, rainy Pacific Northwest, it might have been
normal for me to think, “Oh Lord, what have we done,” but I don’t remember
thinking that. What I do remember thinking is: Damn, it’s hot.
Everything is different here, even the houses. For instance,
very few homes here have basements. Every home I’d ever lived in in Seattle had
a basement. Basements, while great for storage and rec rooms, lodged big, brown
fuzzy spiders seeking someplace dry to dwell. Basements were cold and
damp—damper than the rest of the home. During the grey, rainy months that made
up the better part of the year, that dampness seeped into my bones, making it
impossible to feel warm, despite cozy fires or comfy socks.
Instead of walled-in patios with swimming pools, our homes
in Seattle had decks and front porches for enjoying the sunshine when it did
come out. On those gorgeous, yet rare, blue-sky days when the sun graced us
with its appearance, everything was outside on the deck. Our first home as
newlyweds was a tiny, white brick, “war-box” house to which we quickly added a
giant deck. If it wasn’t raining, the deck was where the celebration
was—birthdays, baptisms, impromptu get-togethers, all celebrated in our outdoor
space.
After spending our whole lives within five miles of the
house I’d grown up in, we decided to follow my husband’s job to Scottsdale. We
had two weekends to find a house that would suit Jim and me along with our two
boys that were nine and twelve at the time. Between two whirlwind trips packed with
home tours, we settled on our current home—a remodeled southwest-style ranch
home. My first home with one floor.
We traded hardwood floors for travertine marble
tile…everywhere. We traded cozy rooms for soaring 14-foot ceilings. None of our
“contemporary Northwest” furniture worked in the new home, but even after
replacing it with more appropriate counterparts, our voices literally echoed
through the house. Friends back home would call and partway into the
conversation would ask, “Where are
you? It sounds as if you’re in a cave.”
Out front, instead of rhododendrons, there are bougainvillea
and giant, towering saguaro. Fuzzy thyme plants have been replaced by small
barrel cactus and plants for which I do not yet know the names. We almost
ripped out a dead looking, medusa-like bush/tree thing before finding out it
was a dormant ocotillo. Ironically, the one thing we have more of in our desert
landscape than we had in Seattle is a giant swath of thick, green grass.
My favorite thing about this house is that I can run from
one end of it to the other. Or dance across it. With a wall of glass doors that
open up to our patio, I often delightfully boogie across our living and dining
area, spying outside to the swimming pool, palm trees, and hammock that paint
the picture of a lovely vacation day. And, just as in the brochures, the sun is
always shining.
No, I’ve never entertained the thought, what have we done? Even during our five scorching summers where you
just survive five months of hotter-than-hell. I don’t believe in regrets.
Despite the fact that the desert is pokey and harsh, and in many ways trying to
fit in here has been the same, I am glad we moved. This home, like all the
others I’ve lived in, is not “home” because of where it is or what it holds. It
is home because it is where I live with the people I love. In many ways, our
move to Arizona has brought our family closer because we have only had each
other.
Our sons, now 15 and 18, will be moving along soon, and Jim
and I already talk about “our next home.” It could be a loft condo, or a small
flat in France, or a beach house in Central America. We still own our house in
Seattle and people always ask if we will move back. We always have the same
reply: Even if we did move back, we would live in a different house. That
house, filled with the sweet memories of raising our young boys, served its
purpose for us. Each new home has served the stage of our lives we were in
well.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
The Joy Choice (Part 3)
(Part 3 of 3)
Choosing to Laugh and Play More
The last choice I'll share with you in my quest to choose joy is choosing to laugh and play more. We humans tend to take life so seriously! We need to lighten up, laugh a bit more. Right now my son is a senior in high school and talk about serious...you should hear parents who are going through this college admissions process!
What is he going to do next year? Which school is he going to? What if he doesn't get in to his first choice? What if he doesn't get in at all? When is this due, that due, what if he doesn't graduate--he'll never be able to be productive in the world! All will be lost!
The fact of the matter is, they're going to be okay, these seniors of ours. Why do we insist on creating all this stress and pressure on them at what is probably one of the most exciting, hopeful times of their lives? This is a time of opportunity and dreams...all on mom and dad's dime! If we could just lighten up about it, maybe they could experience the joy of the experience.
Even in our darkest circumstances, there are opportunities for us to play and laugh. The late Gilda Radner, a marvelous comedienne, said: "Cancer is probably the most unfunny thing in the world, but I'm a comedienne, and even cancer wasn't going to stop me from seeing the humor in what I was going through."
And play and laughter is not only good for us personally, but it also connects us to those around us. Another great comedian and musician, the late Victor Borge said: "Laughter is the shortest distance between two people."
But I'd dare to take it one step further.
Choosing joy--through laughter, choosing our thoughts, making choices, noticing, and however else--does more than just impact me or the people I come in contact with on a regular basis. I would argue that it changes the world.
How can we solve war and discord in the world if we do not first eliminate it in our own hearts and minds?
So, for me, in this moment and in as many moments as possible while I am on this planet...I choose joy.
I hope you will, too.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
The Joy Choice (Part 2)
(Part 2 of 3)
Choosing What I Say "Yes" To
When I hit my emotional/physical brick wall a little over a year ago, initially I had to say no to everything. I was physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted so it was easy to just stop doing anything. As I started to feel better and get my energy back, I found that I was much more discerning about what I chose to spend my time and energy on. I've spent the last year learning that NO is a complete sentence...and I can say it!
In my old life, I had two criteria for doing things--if I could do it or if I thought I should do it, then I said yes. This lead to a crazy life that was living me instead of me living my life. Now, I ask myself: do I want to do it or do I feel so strongly that this needs to be done that I want to do it? If the answer is yes, then I choose to commit to it. If the answer is no, even if it seems like a really fun thing or great opportunity, I say no. (For more on this, check out my article: When Saying Yes Means Saying No on HeadDrama.com).
What I've found is that because I am spending my time and energy on the things that I choose to do, the things that are important to me, I get more joy out of participating in them! Choosing what I say "yes" to has heightened my experience of joy in my daily life.
Choosing to Notice More
Another choice I've made is choosing to notice more. We can have people and events all around us that bring us joy, but our lack of recognition can lessen our experience of it. It is so easy to just get on autopilot and do what we've always done without taking time to notice moments of joy.
A woman in my writing group was sharing her experience of this the other day. She loves to do Zumba® fitness dance classes, but had realized that she was going but not really taking the time to notice how much fun she was having while she was there. The simple act of stopping to make mental note of how much fun she was having increased her experience of joy in taking the class and in her day.
We are such creatures of habit--sitting in the same spot on the sofa, taking the same route to school or work, shopping at the same stores--I think sometimes we need to purposely shake things up so that we can notice more.
Years ago, I worked at Starbucks corporate offices and one of the vice presidents had previously owned a furniture store. He told us that he made a conscious effort every day to enter the store in a different manner: sometimes he crawled on his hands and knees, other times he'd climb on a chair. These vantage points gave him a different perspective and he noticed things that he would have otherwise missed if he'd just walked in the same old way.
So choosing to take the time and make the effort to see shift my perspective is increasing my experience of joy in my daily life. It ain't always easy...but it's worth it!
Stay tuned for Part 3: Choosing to Laugh and Play More
Choosing What I Say "Yes" To
When I hit my emotional/physical brick wall a little over a year ago, initially I had to say no to everything. I was physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted so it was easy to just stop doing anything. As I started to feel better and get my energy back, I found that I was much more discerning about what I chose to spend my time and energy on. I've spent the last year learning that NO is a complete sentence...and I can say it!
In my old life, I had two criteria for doing things--if I could do it or if I thought I should do it, then I said yes. This lead to a crazy life that was living me instead of me living my life. Now, I ask myself: do I want to do it or do I feel so strongly that this needs to be done that I want to do it? If the answer is yes, then I choose to commit to it. If the answer is no, even if it seems like a really fun thing or great opportunity, I say no. (For more on this, check out my article: When Saying Yes Means Saying No on HeadDrama.com).
What I've found is that because I am spending my time and energy on the things that I choose to do, the things that are important to me, I get more joy out of participating in them! Choosing what I say "yes" to has heightened my experience of joy in my daily life.
Choosing to Notice More
Another choice I've made is choosing to notice more. We can have people and events all around us that bring us joy, but our lack of recognition can lessen our experience of it. It is so easy to just get on autopilot and do what we've always done without taking time to notice moments of joy.
A woman in my writing group was sharing her experience of this the other day. She loves to do Zumba® fitness dance classes, but had realized that she was going but not really taking the time to notice how much fun she was having while she was there. The simple act of stopping to make mental note of how much fun she was having increased her experience of joy in taking the class and in her day.
We are such creatures of habit--sitting in the same spot on the sofa, taking the same route to school or work, shopping at the same stores--I think sometimes we need to purposely shake things up so that we can notice more.
Years ago, I worked at Starbucks corporate offices and one of the vice presidents had previously owned a furniture store. He told us that he made a conscious effort every day to enter the store in a different manner: sometimes he crawled on his hands and knees, other times he'd climb on a chair. These vantage points gave him a different perspective and he noticed things that he would have otherwise missed if he'd just walked in the same old way.
So choosing to take the time and make the effort to see shift my perspective is increasing my experience of joy in my daily life. It ain't always easy...but it's worth it!
Stay tuned for Part 3: Choosing to Laugh and Play More
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
The Joy Choice: Little Decisions That Make Life More Joyful (Part 1)
(Since this was originally a ten-minute speech, I'm going to break this down into several blog posts so that someone might have a prayer of actually reading all of them.)
Part 1 of 3
I love watching little kids when I'm out and about--2, 3, 4 year olds--the ones that are too little to be in "real" school yet. They seem to have an innate sense of whatever will bring them joy and they just do it! They twirl or drop to the ground and roll around or stick a finger in their nose. They do what they want to be joyful and don't care what anyone (including their parents) thinks. Somewhere along the way, I think most of us lose that sense of what will bring us joy and then choosing to act on it.
A little over a year ago, I had a bit of a meltdown. I had a fantastic life--wonderful husband, great marriage, two wonderful kids, our home (something to be grateful for in this day and age), our health--and yet I wasn't happy. Sure their were moments of happiness, but I didn't have that deep-down core happiness that I call joy. And I couldn't figure out why. I had everything I'd dreamed of, yet joy eluded me. Then, the meltdown. I hit a psychic brick wall and had to just stop everything. I was physically and mentally exhausted from "living the dream."
I was blessed enough to have the time over the next year to do some serious personal work. I got to explore why I wasn't experiencing joy and how I might experience more of it. What I discovered was that much of my joy was in the choices I was (or wasn't) making. I'd like to share some of the ways I've been choosing joy in my life.
Choosing My Thoughts
If you think about it, much of our experience is really about what we are thinking. If we are having stressed out, worried thoughts, we are experiencing a stressed out, worried life. And vice versa.
For example, my son goes to school about a half hour from our house and I get to experience an hour's worth of freeway and downtown commuting right at rush hour. Believe me, other drivers give me plenty of opportunities to lose my joy! They change lanes without signaling, they cut me off, go too fast, go too slow, tailgate...and my first reaction is anger. Irritation. Swearing. But none of my reaction affects them, my reaction only serves to ruin my own day. My joy is in my perception.
There was a story in one of the Chicken Soup for the Soul books a long time ago. You've probably heard it before: A woman is looking forward to a quiet commute home on the train and a man gets on with his unruly young children. She gets more and more worked up, wondering why he isn't doing something about his kids' behavior so finally, she confronts him. The man explains that they are on their way home from the hospital where his wife, the kids' mother, just died. In an instant, her perception shifts. The kids are still unruly, she's still tired, but that one little piece of information melts her anger into empathy.
Maybe that guy who just cut me off is on his way to Phoenix Children's Hospital where his kid is fighting cancer. Maybe that woman tailgating me can't be late to work again or she'll lose her job--and her home. I don't know what their stories are, but isn't it just as easy for me to assume that they're not just assholes? The fact is I get to experience more joy in my life when I choose to think positive thoughts...OR when I just choose not to think negative thoughts.
Tune in next time for choice #2: Choosing What I Say "Yes" To
Part 1 of 3
I love watching little kids when I'm out and about--2, 3, 4 year olds--the ones that are too little to be in "real" school yet. They seem to have an innate sense of whatever will bring them joy and they just do it! They twirl or drop to the ground and roll around or stick a finger in their nose. They do what they want to be joyful and don't care what anyone (including their parents) thinks. Somewhere along the way, I think most of us lose that sense of what will bring us joy and then choosing to act on it.
A little over a year ago, I had a bit of a meltdown. I had a fantastic life--wonderful husband, great marriage, two wonderful kids, our home (something to be grateful for in this day and age), our health--and yet I wasn't happy. Sure their were moments of happiness, but I didn't have that deep-down core happiness that I call joy. And I couldn't figure out why. I had everything I'd dreamed of, yet joy eluded me. Then, the meltdown. I hit a psychic brick wall and had to just stop everything. I was physically and mentally exhausted from "living the dream."
I was blessed enough to have the time over the next year to do some serious personal work. I got to explore why I wasn't experiencing joy and how I might experience more of it. What I discovered was that much of my joy was in the choices I was (or wasn't) making. I'd like to share some of the ways I've been choosing joy in my life.
Choosing My Thoughts
If you think about it, much of our experience is really about what we are thinking. If we are having stressed out, worried thoughts, we are experiencing a stressed out, worried life. And vice versa.
For example, my son goes to school about a half hour from our house and I get to experience an hour's worth of freeway and downtown commuting right at rush hour. Believe me, other drivers give me plenty of opportunities to lose my joy! They change lanes without signaling, they cut me off, go too fast, go too slow, tailgate...and my first reaction is anger. Irritation. Swearing. But none of my reaction affects them, my reaction only serves to ruin my own day. My joy is in my perception.
There was a story in one of the Chicken Soup for the Soul books a long time ago. You've probably heard it before: A woman is looking forward to a quiet commute home on the train and a man gets on with his unruly young children. She gets more and more worked up, wondering why he isn't doing something about his kids' behavior so finally, she confronts him. The man explains that they are on their way home from the hospital where his wife, the kids' mother, just died. In an instant, her perception shifts. The kids are still unruly, she's still tired, but that one little piece of information melts her anger into empathy.
Maybe that guy who just cut me off is on his way to Phoenix Children's Hospital where his kid is fighting cancer. Maybe that woman tailgating me can't be late to work again or she'll lose her job--and her home. I don't know what their stories are, but isn't it just as easy for me to assume that they're not just assholes? The fact is I get to experience more joy in my life when I choose to think positive thoughts...OR when I just choose not to think negative thoughts.
Tune in next time for choice #2: Choosing What I Say "Yes" To
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Perfectly Imperfect
As far back
as I can remember, in any given situation, I've been excellent at reading other people to figure out what's "expected," and then do what it takes to meet or beat those expectations. I have always been good at people-pleasing.
This means at home I was the "good" kid. At school, I was the "good" student. When I met my husband, I added “good”
wife to my list. Then, when our boys were born, I took it to a whole new level. I read every parenting book
I could get my hands on. I was not going to be just a "good" mother...I was going to be the perfect mother. I was going to do it the "right" way and raise perfect children.
I lived this way, trying to please
everyone else, to live up to someone else's idea of perfect, for most of my life. Until a few years ago, when my kids entered
their teen years. They had their own ideas about what they wanted to do and who
they wanted to be. I kept trying to fit them, and our whole family, into the
impossibly perfect mold I’d created based on what I thought was everyone else’s vision of
“perfect.”
Now, we had never measured up to this mold of the perfect family that I was trying to fit us into, but as the kids gave up youth group in favor of playing death metal, we
were getting farther away from this version of perfect every day. The more
I tried to make the mold fit, the worse things got for all of us--frustration, arguing, nagging were making home life unpleasant. Until about a year ago, when the mold just broke. Really, I just broke.
You can call it whatever you want—a
meltdown, a mid-life crisis, a crash—but essentially I had to let go. I was physically, emotionally, and psychologically exhausted from trying to measure up to some impossible—and
incorrect—version of who I thought we should all be.
This "crash" has been the greatest gift of my life.
For a year now, I’ve been in the
process of learning some fabulous life lessons and I’ve been blessed with
amazing, supportive teachers along the way.
Here is what I am learning:
·
There is no one right way. This may not be shocking to many of you, but this was a revelation to me that took 40 years! There are a lot of right ways--and none of them is perfect. It was the French philosopher, Voltaire who said, “The perfect is the enemy of the good.” And it’s true.
I missed out on a lot of good stuff while I was striving for someone else’s view of
perfection.
·
The more I try to be perfect, the more distant
it becomes. Trying to be perfect actually keeps me from being excellent. When I
am afraid of screwing up—whether it’s in public speaking or in my marriage or
my writing—that’s when I do my least best work. It’s when I’m willing to make
mistakes and reveal my “true self” that I form deeper connections with others.
·
Being present is more important than being
perfect. It is my life’s work from now on to be more present and more grateful.
When I am focused on being perfect, it removes me from experiencing what
“is”—I’m too much in my head thinking about what to do, how to be. When I'm caught up in all my mind chatter, I'm not present and can't connect with anyone. And I happen to believe that forming deeper connections with each other is part of our mission on this planet.
Maybe the most important lesson I’ve
learned, though, is that I don’t know. I don’t know the "right" way, or what I'm supposed to do, or why others do what they do. As far as I can tell, my job is to show up and let go of the outcome.
As we start this new year, I would
challenge us all to look at whatever it is in our lives that holds us back,
keeps us from being present, keeps us from having the kinds of relationships we
long for, and I would encourage us to take steps to change that. It's a process, not a project, but I think the more of us that get started on it, the better off the world will be.
We can’t
be perfect, but we can be excellent, and excellence happens when we are
present, when we are passionate, and when we are just our plain ol’ imperfect
selves. So Happy New Year, and here’s to being perfectly imperfect.
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